Ever since I got hired in the company that I am working right now, I dubbed myself as a "Contract Worker." Why? Well literally, I am not on probation nor on temporary status... but it states in my contract that I am employed in that company for 3 months, hence dubbing myself as such.
Sad to say, my contract ends this Tuesday, June 30th.
Our previous supervisor who happens to own a company is encouraging us to work with him. His offer is quite convincing actually. But for me, it means getting to know people again, getting familiar with the workplace and how thing are done in the company. I can just describe it as "going back to square one." We've put off the contract signing till this week so that we can check or see if the company I am working right now will consider renewing our contract and changing our status as regular employees.
Actually, thinking about the pros and cons on both companies always makes my head hurt. For me, it is a big decision especially in terms of my career growth. I am actually torn between the two opportunities, especially right now that one member of our team (team of 3 web designers) got accepted in a decent company with a much more better offer. Too bad for us remaining 2, she told us that the company is just looking for 1 web designer in the meantime.
It just made me realize what my former colleague once told me... I can't easily step out of my "comfort zone." Right now, I'm actually scared... with zero-visibility in what's in store for me in my chosen career. Inside, I am already panicking. Our company is waiting for the CEO's responce regarding our renewal of contract if they plan to do so... on the other side, my former supervisor is just waiting for us to be part of his company.
All I want is to be a part of a company who will consider me as a regular employee with benefits that is required by law. Having friendly co-workers would be an added bonus that I am willing to accept as well.
I know this entry is quite confusing... as I am confused as this moment. I am just praying that things will work out for me and hopefully will be better than I expected.
I just made a promise to myself right now: if our CEO of the company that I'm working right now doesn't have any word regarding the renewal of our contract, I will send out my resignation letter to my supervisor and will give a go signal to the other company to prepare our contract.
I hope and pray that the decision that I will make regarding my career is right for me. I also pray that I will learn a lot and will have career growth as well.
"Lord, give me strength."
